Dark trauma is about carrying some of the traumatic events of your life and how we are able to live with some of trauma that comes to us. We try to hide some of the scars, but no matter how well hidden, they emerge at times and reveal themselves.
Deep are the wounds you cannot see,
I hide them when I want to pretend,
There are no scars of memories
That haunt me to this very day.
There are things I don't want you to know,
Secrets I keep close to my very core,
These things I do not wish to talk about,
Things only I need to know.
I did not come here to talk about my feelings
Or to tell you what kind of man I want to be,
I see the landscape that's set out before me,
That rugged road that brought me here today.
Dark trauma Is what my diagnosis is supposed to be,
But I do not feel pain I had once called home,
There is no name in the DSM V
To describe what it is I'm going through.
You can't get through life unscaved
Pain is part of the ride
Baggage becomes heavier
When you've been around a while.
Coping is something you choose
When the shit starts to gets real
Something you use to numb your brain
When you no longer want to feel.
So thank you for your fifty minute hour
Thank you for your diplomas and certificates,
Thank you for the psycobabBle
Words that were supposed to fix me.